Well, Halloween came and went. I was sick then and couldn’t really celebrate properly. I’m finally feeling better, so I’m grateful for that. It still sucks that I spent my favorite holiday with a huge fever, especially since I was sick on Halloween last year and the year before that.

Anyway, I’ve been trying to work on myself a little bit. I want to be more confident, but I also don’t want to be too prideful. I want to learn how to stand up for myself, but I also want to learn how to accept help from others when I need it. I’m trying to be happier again. Usually autumn and winter are my ‘happiest’ months, but since I’ve been sick and all it’s really tanked my mood. Right now I’m just trying to focus on the little things. I went to the drugstore and bought some hairdye. I’m gonna touch up my hair, and then I’ll play video games with my friends. I’m gonna hang out with a good friend next weekend and the weekend after that, and I might buy myself something nice just because.

Happiness is nice, but gratitude is important too. I am grateful for everything. I think without gratitude, being happy is almost impossible. Being mindful of all the blessings I have in life helps me feel better when I’m down.